Independence

My kids are growing up so fast.  They're are becoming more independent every day.  It's sad to know they're not going to depend on me as much but it helps me so much right now, too.  Kyler's learning to bathe himself (which is wonderful because it's really starting to hurt my back to bend over the bathtub) and both kids have started picking out their own clothes and get dressed in the mornings without being told.  It's really quite lovely.  Now if they would just clean their rooms and put away their clean laundry without being asked.... :) 

I keep having people tell me (or tell me that they heard from someone else) what a strong woman I am.  I don't feel strong.  I've been thinking about this all week and I'm glad that people see me being strong for my kids but I really feel like I could fall apart at any moment.  Tears are close to the surface most of the time.  I'm pretty depressed (which is hard for me, too.  I've never dealt with depression before and I'm not sure how to get past it).  I don't feel strong at all.